Ask Layzie about Heroin Addiction/Doing Time In Prison

[Layzie]

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You said you will be getting over your addiction for life,
however do you ever look at it from another perspective like,

...well whenever you have a thought linked to the desire to use,
you think about how strong you are compared to most humans,
who would/still have never conquered that addiction and will
most likely succumb to it.

Can you treat those thoughts as a reminder of what you have accomplished,
go look into the mirror and say, "I am a [censored] badass because as of this moment I have beaten heorin"?

While the desire to use again is real, and thusly you may not feel like a badass vs. heroin, I think the fact that you have pulled this far ahead is pretty goddamn badass.

What kind of mindset do you use against heroin as of now?
Can you rate your desire to use right now, compared to 2 years ago, 3, etc?
How do you imagine your mindset will be 5 years from now?

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I think being able to kick the addiction, and stay clean for so long puts me in the upper percentile of longer term heroin users. I do think in a way, that helps me from using again. So, yes I can use that information as a reminder that i'm fairly strong willed (or at least stronger than I once was). I rate my desire to use probably at a 4. I don't remember the last time I actually considered going out and doing heroin. I mainly think about the feeling of the high alot. I think about the euphoria, and then I think about another week of terrible pain, and how it would effect my family, my friends, my girlfriend, and every other aspect of my life. I think in 5 years it will still be something that creeps into my mind occaisonally. I'm not sure that it will ever go away. But, again, I haven't gotten to the point where i've actually seriously considered doing it. It's just the feeling I think about.