I Want To Quit.

[bruin]

I am a winning player (netted 10k in my lifetime, was up almost 30k at one point, though) but since post-legislation I just can't manage my money. I dont know what it is, but the slightest things tilt me and I go to the highest stakes available.

I've been able to manage money before and build up a roll with the occasional tilt sessions, but it's just not working. I feel like an addictive gambler (i KNOW im compulsive) who has this never-ending pipe dream of making it big again. I constantly build up my roll only to do something stupid and lose it again. The only thing that keeps me from quitting is the fact that I have managed money well before, and the fact that I know for a fact (Pokertracker) I can make 30-40/hr at the small stakes.

I'm just not sure how to quit, because even 30-40/hr would be good to me. I'm a college student and would like to have extra spending money (I have 6k left to my name) to take trips and whatever. I work but it's not enough to actually do stuff with aside from buy food and random stuff.

I have a lot of other interests and the rest of my life is healthy, I'd say. I love my life as a whole. I just think that money from poker would make my life that much better. My problem is that I simply tilt, despite the fact that I have controlled my tilt before.

sure, I CAN manage my money and probably build a roll again, but i DONT.

im just not sure where to go. I've taken breaks, but I have the same tilt problem since post-legislation. I'm thinking that maybe I should abandon this site cold turkey--you haven't really quit poker if you're still at 2+2.