OT: Confidence Boost

[Mike MacIntosh]

I believe I need a confidence boost.

I built my roll from 2400 up to 6k, 5-tabling the 27s during a two month time frame (and from 600 to 2400 playing lower stakes over a 5 month period).

I moved up to the 60s last week and have been on a 20 bi down slide over 200 gms. What a cooler.

I hate being one of those players who attribute their downswings to nothing but "bad luck". Whenever I am losing, the last thing I want to say is, "I am just getting unlucky". It sounds like such BS.

Therefore I over analyze every aspect of my game imaginable. I feel unsure of SNGPT questions, that I would have laughed at a week ago. It only gets worse when I consider the "moving up" factor. I don't have any past experience that proves I am a winner at this level, so I lose a lot of confidence in myself when I am losing. Which seems very natural, and dangerous.

Maybe I need to move down and build my roll up to 6k again, work on my game, etc. Then take another shot at the 60s.

Maybe I should just take a day or two off and then come back refreshed.

However I feel like I am over it, and am ready to only focus on the decisions that take place during each hand, and ignore results.

The problem is my bankroll. I have 4800, and don't feel comfortable losing another 2k, before moving down to the 27s again. At the 27s, I was able to still enjoy myself when the cards didn't go my way. I was anxious to load up another table after my AA got cracked by KQs, because I know my opponents are playing so badly, and their mistakes are my profit.

Now I feel angry and frustrated, when a bad beat hits, I lose a race for the 3rd time in a session, and I lose 8 bi over 10 games. I doubt myself, at every given opportunity. Worst of all, I stop having fun, which is the reason why I started playing this game in the first place.

Does anyone have any similar experiences? Advice?