Another Help me get back with an Ex post

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Quick background... Was with her for 5 years at year 3 she got fired from her cushy surveillance supervisor job because of me. Im a table games supervisor (boo I know). She has plenty of schooling including a degree and a diploma. As assholish as it sounds she can do 10x better. Court case ensued (my current employer career limiting move) everything worked out OK (can't talk about the non Settlement) Times were rough until things were settled we lived above our means. To make matters worse I didn't step up to the plate and help out more financially when I should have. ([censored] I know).... I have done allot of research on relationships (after the fact and for all you who haven't do it before so you aren't asking for help know). I love that girl. Im 32 lived with her for 5 years as I said we have 2 dogs/I have 2 dogs.. We still bought christmas presents for each other. we broke up in february and she sent flowers on my moms birthday in september and bought me a bday gift in november.. NO we haven't been banging sorry wish we where. Talk to me OOT..........am I wasting time I hope not...........I will give more info if needed.........Brutal honesty is accepted