undisciplined, undedicated

[skillzilla]

My poker playing begun cuz i wanted to make a lot of easy money.I like(like, not love, i proprably wouldnt play this game if there wasnt money envolved) to play poker, i started playing about 7 months ago. When i first started i tried to learn everything i could get my hands on, i was too scared to play for real money cuz i was afraid of losing and being outplayed. The first book i read was "poker for dummies", i dont really remember anything from that book, it didnt offer any real strategic advice, after that i got my hands on HPFAP that book is filled with great advice but most of it skipped me(Ive never been able to concentrate on what im reading, i think i might have a mild case of ADD).I got some good advice from it though, i remember that after reading that book i was constantly trying free card plays, check raises and slowplays.

At that time i found a $125 bonus at partypoker, i donked off $60 and got my bonus cleared. I was $65 in the green, it was great success for me at that time.

After that i read SSHE, it was an easy to read and understand book written in english i could understand. I immediatly went on a huge upswing making over 300 bucks, i was on the top of the world.
After that i went on to clear a 500 bonus and was forced to move up to 0.5/1 where i was a small loser over 15000 hands, i was 4 tabling with all my call, folds and raises being very automatic.That was 4 months ago, i moved up the ranks quickly and then my development as a player just stopped and i havent been able to pick up from where i left.

I think i might have some poker talent, I just cant bring myself to study the game and concentrate on getting better at it.I would like to achieve expert status but right now im just so undisciplined, i feel like i know everything about this game, i know that i dont but i feel like i do and its very hard to shake off this feeling and get back to studying, any help or advice would be appreciated.

sry for every sentence starting with I.