downswing = depression

so basically i have let poker control my emotions over the past week.

i started off by depositing 20k into pokerstars and ran it up to 50k in one night playing 25-50nl. then, that same night, i lost all of my profit and was left with my original 20k. meh, variance. not the first time i have won/lost 30k. pretty standard 6buyin swing in agressive NL games. my mood: indifferent.

the next day i play/run very well and run my bankroll up to ~90k. so awesome. i begin thinking i am the king of poker. this is so easy. i am going to be a millionaire before i know it. i go to my classes and am more outgoing than usual and generally upbeat.

next day i have the worst downswing of my life (-85k) and feel like absolute crap. i sleep in till ~1pm the next day and skip my classes. i make it to my classes the next day but basically feel like a bum and have no enthusiasm about my work etc.

then i re-deposit more money (30k) and run/play good again. i got it back up to about 80k (so a total profit of 30k after original deposited money) and, of course, i start feeling great again. i decide to continue playing through the night and, of course, lose it all.

2 more days in a row, i slept through classes and feel like a piece of trash. looks like i need to take a break for a while and stop letting poker control my emotions/whether or not i go to class.