Trouble w/ parents i need that famous oot wisdom

[Zarathustra]

It's somewhat ironic that you rave about your parents being ignorant, yet you think that nihilism is a "belief system" that one can be sympathetic to. Nihilism is a very general term that usually refers to the denial of conventional valuations (in your case probably the denial of religious values). It's important to keep in mind that Christianity is a form of radical nihilism unto itself because it strives to devalue behaviors such as sexual intercourse and other alleged vices in favor of worshipping a god and fantasy afterlife. The works of Friedrich Nietzsche would greatly enhance your understanding of nihilism.