I came back to say hello

[spaceman Bryce]

I was mad at you guys because I came here for support and the like 6 people called my problems fake and my account a joke. I actually cried about this because i had been posting here for 2 years and everyone hates me. This is just like high school. I realize this isnt a support group but come on. I dont have a lot of real friends and I need people to at least act reasonalby to me because i am on a very thin thread of sanity.
I just wanted to say hello to see if you guys have already forgotten about me. Anyway, I am not allowed to use the internet but I have a library close to my house so you all get to hear my ramblings anyway!!YAY! Yes its true by the way- I sent naked pictures of myself to older men and had sex with one of them. I do not know why i do these things but I cannot control myself. It makes me very sad and I know I belong in an institution somewhere but what am i supposed to do, just give up on life and say "take me away!" SO i have been trying to do good things lately- ie focusing on my less harmful addictions I read a few good books( middlesex, the great gatsby, kite runner) and I have a level 24 character in oblivion. I have a job at night stocking groceries and I sleep two hours a day. Becuase I live with my parents I actually have some money saved up. Yes I am really pathetic, I know that. Also, I actually started a relationship with this girl I have been stalking and its just a friendship but thats amazing considering
that I thought she would have a restraining order by now.
Also, last night I saw a movie that was wierd. It was a movie about this older guy named leon and he takes a homeless twelve year old girl under his wing and teaches her to assasinate people. her name is matilda. She is the hottest 12 year old I have ever seen in a movie. I missed sections of it. If you have a clue about which movie im talking about...

is that a young natalie portman?? also, I am not a pedophile.