How [censored] long can I run bad, or does god just hate me

[Salerosa]

Just a quick rundown of my day based on big starting hands.

Aces: Got action 3 times. Two guys flop sets, lose two medium pots, felt I played them well. 3rd was all in preflop with AKo. He won.

KK: Got action 5 times. First two times ace flops, I fold to solid opponents flop lead. Next 3 times I get it in preflop, of course that is pretty easy when your opponents each have AA. 0 suckouts for me.

QQ: Action 4 times, win one medium pot, 2nd hand I get it in on flop with TPTK, he catches his ace on river. Other two times Im up against two ~50BB stacks (and donks to boot), both wake up with AA and yeah I double them up.

I dont have the time or effort to run through everytime my kicker got counterfeited on the river to lose 40-60 BB pots or some idiot is unfazed by large flop and turn bets because he is using his clairvoyant powers or pattern mapper or whatever it is he uses to KNOW his straight, flush, gutshot, over, whatever was going to hit.

Now, I know what you're thinking, welcome to poker and variance you gigantic puss. Extend everything I wrote about my day for almost the last three months, though to be fair, at least most of the money I lost today to donks was when they had me crushed preflop (AA vs KK). Usually they are drawing to 2-5 outs and hit left and right. Nearly EVERY big pot Im losing Im not only getting in as a favorite, but I have my opponents friggin dominated. I am at my wits end. I have watched my comfortable 15k bankroll (400 NL) dwindle to barely over 2k (though alot of that was cashouts).

And I don't need anyone to call into question my poker ability, I may suck and yeah my game has lots of leaks, but this [censored] ridiculous. I can't beat 200 and 400 NL right now; these friggin games are so soft Im pretty sure there are regulars who are cebidae and beat it consistently. I honestly think the best highstakes player on the board would have trouble turning a profit in the 400 NL games (maybe even 200 NL) running the way I have for the last ~60k hands (though Im sure they would have played many more hands in a 3 month period). And just to clarify, the high stakes players on this board are much better than me Im sure, but I am running that frigging bad.

I keep telling myself that Im due for a good day, that people will stop hitting ridiculous outs against me and Ill just tear it up, I mean it has to, its just probablity. It never happens. I have almost conceded to the fact that I may just be that one statistical anomaly who is destined to run bad over the million or so hands Ill play during my lifetime.

I'm sure this is full of grammatical errors and the like; I just needed to vent, I am just about at my wits end (and broke). Take solice in the fact that as bad as your day may have been, it didn't just take place the previous 89 before it.

BTW Im not usually this pessimistic I swear.