I need focus

[holdme]

I can't play to win anymore. I want to win lots and lots of monies, but I now lack the motivation to be the best. Lately, I've been playing pretty break-even poker. It's like me vs. myself. Part of me wants to win. Part of me wants to have fun and gamboool. I try to suppress my uber-lag side, but he likes to come out and f things up. Help. Thanks.