[Mr_Pathetic]

this is probably going to sound zany but i feel that along the path of life there are signs to point you in the right direction but they are subtle and you must be keen on picking them up. so far i have followed the ones i have been able to see. a good example of this is sitting in undergrad and hearing the dir of the graduate program ran by the poli sci dept. say in class that when you apply to graduate school they do not care about your total gpa but more about what you did in the your last 2-4 semesters. i had not even considered grad school due to my poor performance during the beginning of undergrad but my last 3 semesters were 3.5GPA or better. this led me to apply for grad school and i was accepted into the MPA (public admin) program.

that program changed the way i think about life. it completely changed me intellectually forever. without completing that program i would have never known what it is like to try to do something you view as near impossible, stick it out, have faith in yourself, and complete it. this was all foreign to me as nothing had ever challenged me like this before. i became addicted to this and i will forever have to feed this addiction with whatever i do in life for a career or i will be empty and void of any fulfillment. so it is not just poker i choose to feed this addiction with. anything i feel is near impossible for me to do will suffice. so when poker stops feeding this addiction which it will when i hit the wall i cannot break through it will be time to move on. i think the next near impossible thing for me to do is PhD. if i had the $$ i would do it right now but I need to get out of the student loan debt i have now before i go back. coastal resource management would be very fun...