[mmbt0ne]

Alright I, after 3 months of research here's the prescription:

1) get some kind of job. being an unemployed introspective person makes this about a bajillion times worse.
2) find two hobbies
.....a) an athletic hobby like jogging or golf or lifting. basically anything you can do almost every day. staying active will make you happier and hopefully wear you out b/c going to sleep is going to suck for a while.
.....b) an intellectual hobby. this can be more broad like learning to play an instrument or cooking class or studying for a graduate exam to prove that you're worthy of something ( [img]/images/graemlins/frown.gif[/img] ). basically the key here is anything that makes you concentrate for a period of time
3) find the closest (geographic) friends you can and spend as much time with them as you can doing whatever you guys can decide on. if you don't have ANY friends close to where you're living then [censored] move since you don't have any real obligations. you sound like me in the sense that you aren't the kind of person to just go out meeting people when you feel like this.