[Badger]

One of the worst memories I have is after beating up my older brother. He was about 2 and a half years older than me, but he is mentally retarded.

We beat on eachother like brothers normally do, but I remember one specific instance where I was really upset about something (I have no clue what) and I had him on the ground and was punching him really hard. I don't remember how old I was, but it was well after I had transitioned into the older brother role, and I knew it was wrong after I did it. Well, I knew it was wrong before I did it, but my anger got the better of me. I felt awful because he was crying afterwards. We were both still fairly young, but I remember that as a defining moment in my life.

Pretty sure I owed at least that to him though, when he still had the upper hand he used to put a plastic bucket on my head and bang on it. I was probably 3 or 4, and this might explain some of why I am the way I am.