[DwightSchrute]

It was a 357 (347 was a typo)

Cliff notes at bottom

So since I was the defenition of steady I end up getting my GF pregnant. I'm like WTF I guess I have to get a job. So I become a BJ dealer. It's decent pay and the only thing I could think of to do fast.

The only thing bad about it was after work I'd drink all night instead of go home to my (now) wife. The work wasn't too steady so I got a job in a salry position. It was less than BJ but it was a steady paycheck with insurance.

The marriage was tough from the start. We just didn't get along. So I drank and we argued. Next thing ya know I'm divorced (noone saw that coming huh?)

Well I fought so hard to keep my son (my gf wanted anabortion) and I loved him so much. But I also loved drinking. I took it easy on nights I had him. But made up for it on nights I didn't. My depression was in and out but I knew I was playing with fire with the alcohol.

So I woke up one morning and said "I'll never drink again". The year or so after that I never really had any problems with depression. I thought I had it beat. I decided it was all from the alcohol.

A few more years go by and I start to feel like crap again. I said F it I'm gonna go see a psychiatrist. I call up all of themwithin my insurance network. The fastest any one of em would see me was a friggin MONTH! Well for me anyway I go in and out of depression. I want to see one whaen I want to see one. I don't want to wait and by the time my appointment comes I don't feel like going.

I finally make one, keep it, and see this lady. It felt good. But it almost felt too good. Like that was my comfort zone. She wants to give me pills and I say no. So many in my bloodline escape with pills. My dad brags about not drinking but abuses the crap out of so many types of pills it's almost funny.

This takes me to nearly 2004-2005

cliff notes - pretty uneventful - I quit drinking but still get depressed.