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Lurker

In one of House's episodes, a patient asks him...

"Don't you care if you leave or die?"

and he says

"I care because I live, I can't care if I'm dead"

All the emotions and the phases you are going are just temporary. We are all gonna die, it's just a matter of when. Just try to enjoy the journey of life while you still can and the moment life starts turning around for you, the smallest thing that makes you happy, will make you enjoy and appreciate being alive so much more than before. We are so lucky to be alive and especially in a time like this with technology, human rights, free speech and all these beautiful things around. Just make sure before you die you make the most out of your live.