[bisonbison]

how hard is it to start over in life, assuming you failed out of college 3 times, 0 friends as you have [censored] them all over at one point in time, have literally no money, and failed at your attempt to play poker for a living?

It's hard, but as long as you're alive it remains doable.

The first step is to get a job, however crappy, so that you can pay your rent. As long as your current job sucks, keep looking for a new one every day. If you have trouble picturing how to get a job, start temping. Call a temp agency and just say you'll do anything.

Once you have a little cash and some sort of schedule, make amends with your friends. Apologize, make peace offerings, or at least get closure for relationships that are not salvageable at the moment.

Steady work and a steady social circle are giant pillars of normalcy. It may take you a long time to build them up, but they are what will support you for your adult life.

Once you've got the pillars in place, you can take a breath and start thinking about not just surviving but thriving.

Trust me.