[JKratzer]

john kane - do you read/post in the psychology forum? if not, start, i bet you'll get a lot more constructive comments from people there because honestly the stuff you post is really mundane/common to anyone that plays much. but there it's expected. it sounds like you're going through the normal growing pains of a poker pro but having difficulty dealing with it. if you really work at it you can learn to handle stuff like downswings and lack of motivatioin. i consider it a skill like anything else.