[suzzer99]

FYI - I've done pretty much everything except shoot heroin (I've shot morphine and sniffed heroin - though only once on each). NOTHING compares to a k-hole (ketamine). It's the only drug where I've ever lost complete track of who I was and what was going on. All I knew was that everything I'd ever taken for granted had changed. That and a vague feeling that I was tethered to some kind of organic form, which I didn't want to let crap it's pants. My theory is that not crapping ones pants must be one of the deepest instincts we have. And possibly that continence must be the very last thing to go before the involuntary stuff starts to fail.

I remember sailing over these landscapes in my mind, that would then turn into something like a big computer chip. I felt like I was creating and destroying a whole new universe every second. I also became convinced that some panel of elders somewhere was monitoring my thoughts, and that I had succeeded in taking all of humanity to the next level. I distinctly remember the disappointing moment when I came down and realized it was just me and my thoughts, no elders, no next level. That and realizing that I was a human being sitting on a couch in a darkened room.

Ketamine is a horse and cat tranquilizer. Supposedly people who have had their cat go under on it say it came back and was never the same. I could see that. No way an animals brain could handle that. I wouldn't do it to my pet.