[TxRedMan]

[ QUOTE ]
Here's what I should do:

1. Stop playing poker forever (I can tell myself it's for
six months).

2. Write a novel about a degenerate gambler, squalid and phonily romantic. Put all my energies into this, and try to get it published (I do have a few connections - until not long ago I was an Eng Lit PhD student at one of the top schools in the country).

3. Profit!

[/ QUOTE ]

let's be honest with OP. if you've seen any of his posts, he's an addict and a degen among degens. if he's not blowing his food money on low limit poker, he's railing the high stakes games on full tilt, giving NVG updates every ten minutes.

jimm, you are a gambler. you will likely be broke most of your life. there will be times where you will have a decent amount of cash from some type of gambling adventure, but you will quickly be back to busto.

you dont want to change. you get some sort of satisfaction from gambling, whether you win or lose. you probably wont ever be able to change that, as it is a chemical imbalance related to the situations you put yourself in.

i suggest you accept your life for what it is. try and avoid extremes, and for [censored] sake mate, learn to beat the micro limits. it's not as though it's a [censored] gauntlet of death, now is it?

so, accept your life for what it is, and try to spend more time appreciating other things and bettering yourself away from poker and in poker. even total degenerates can keep themselves fed and in action, i suggest you work on that.

also, you know you're taking the [censored] money. quit asking OOT for some sort of social validation that will somehow help you conscience taking the abandoned money. but i suggest you adamantly deny you ever took it, and quit making posts (likely from work?) about taking it in the future.

you're not the brightest jewel in the crown, are you?