[Phil153]

To be honest, you sound like a loser. Girls don't [censored] losers.

Keep it simple. Decide whether you want to [censored] her or not. Then act accordingly. The emotional stuff you talk about is just pent up sexual frustration combined with bitterness that she [censored] other guys while using you as a friend. Believe me, when you're grinding away in her [censored] none of that matters any more.

Stop worrying about doing the right thing all the time. And stop trying to find motivations for her actions. Maybe the Paxil is clouding her judgement. Maybe not. So what? She sounds like she's [censored] a few assholes already, so maybe her judgement wasn't that good to begin with. She sounds like she'd do better with you than her regular stallions anyway.

So start thinking about what you want or don't want, and act accordingly. It'll make you and your future girlfriends much happier.