[Rearden]

I dont like most poetry but...

Miniver Cheevy, child of scorn,
Grew lean while he assailed the seasons
He wept that he was ever born,
And he had reasons.
Miniver loved the days of old
When swords were bright and steeds were prancing;
The vision of a warrior bold
Would send him dancing.
Miniver sighed for what was not,
And dreamed, and rested from his labors;
He dreamed of Thebes and Camelot,
And Priam's neighbors.
Miniver mourned the ripe renown
That made so many a name so fragrant;
He mourned Romance, now on the town,
And Art, a vagrant.
Miniver loved the Medici,
Albeit he had never seen one;
He would have sinned incessantly
Could he have been one.
Miniver cursed the commonplace
And eyed a khaki suit with loathing:
He missed the medieval grace
Of iron clothing.
Miniver scorned the gold he sought,
But sore annoyed was he without it;
Miniver thought, and thought, and thought,
And thought about it.
Miniver Cheevy, born too late,
Scratched his head and kept on thinking;
Miniver coughed, and called it fate,
And kept on drinking.
-- Edwin Arlington Robinson

Anacardo,

You're the only one holding you back dude. The world is filled with people with fewer advantages than you who make a go of being successful in any sense (monetary, life satisfaction, life goals, etc.). Also with regards to you being intelligent........ in my experience the most intelligent guys I've met have never had to make that claim they can simply rest on all they have accomplished. Additionally, I think your bankroll/life mistakes count heavily against your functional capacity especially your refusal to learn from them and accept advice. With respect to your depression/personal issues I and other posters can speak from personal experience and state that you are the only one who can work toward putting that in order (sometimes by seeking professional help); or you can keep using it as something of an excuse to prevent you from doing things that are too hard or distasteful.

In the time you spent on this thread trying to showcase your verbal fencing skillz you could have done quite a lot to move on with your life. Making fun of the people in this thread who offer you advice and trying to belittle them (especially when they try to offer you some bit of compassion and understanding) is probably the smallest thing you could do.

Best of luck in the future; your threads are always entertaining.