[Anacardo]

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Anacardo, sometimes I think your spirit has taken up arms against itself. In most instances, this type of thing is solved by diving headlong into religion, often even becoming a religious nut, the type who pesters others about the "good news" all the time and interrupts conversations to tell people that Jesus loves them and is thinking about them RIGHT NOW. Do you think this inevitable on your part?

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No, but your question is eerily prescient. I've been reading George Orwell's collected essays; one of the last is on the life of Gandhi. In it Orwell reflects on the fundamental differences between the humanistic and religious lifestyles, between 'dying happy' and 'not dying at all,' if you will. He contends that the traditional definition of everyday people as 'failed saints' is inaccurate, that saints and regular people are two different kinds of humans who have chosen two different worlds, and that the former reach their state not necessarily as a result of pure superiority of worth or intention, but because of differences of inclination. Their desire to escape this world stems, to Orwell, probably stems from the fact that they find this one painful, 'particularly in the matter of love, which whether sexual or not is hard work.' This clarified a dimly held conception of myself, that I have begun to toy with the idea of sainthood as an 'out,' should all else fail. It is uncomfortable that you should bring this up.

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Also, do you know if Jesus is thinking about me RIGHT NOW? Because I'm about to step into the shower, and I would find that embarassing.

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The doings of God and His Manifestations transcend the understanding of men, as though by a 'Lote-Tree beyond which there is no passing.'

That said, it is my belief, inadequate and ill-informed though it may be, that Jesus is not staring at your wiener.