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Outing me in public is offensive and puts me in a crap spot.

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"I could care less about how my friend played, I am utterly livid at my poor decision making. "


Jason,
That was the most relevant part of my blog entry. I didn't care how you played. If I thought you played poorly, I wouldn't have taken a piece regardless. I didn't out you on a public forum, didn't mention your name, nothing like that. I have no idea who the OP is, and certainly never intended for a shitshow like this to happen. I respect your game more than just about anyone's and as you saw, I wasn't mad at you at ALL. I was mad at myself for making a poor decision. Losing 40k in 20 min, which was my 2nd biggest losing day EVER, made my head spin. I was on utter life tilt. I don't play as high as you do, and am not used to the swings. I made the poor decision. It had nothing to do with you. To say I whined is absurd when I sent you the 40k INSTANTLY, could not have been faster. I am a man and pay my debts and can handle a loss, even though it hurts. Obviously, I will recover. I was upset at myself for making a poor decision. I am very hard on myself and the bad decisions I make (which are many), and this is probably one of the reasons for my successs.

Just so everyone knows, Jason essentially taught me the game of online poker. He has literally been my mentor from 1-2 nl on. I respect his play more than just about anyone that i've met, and consider his posts truly remarkable in their clarity and logic. Whenver I have a tough hand, he is always on the top of my list to ask. Jason, again, I wasn't mad at you AT ALL, I was only mad at myself. I also feel like I am allowed to question the plays you made, but you CERTAINLY have no need to defend them.

I take marginal ev gambles all the time, it was MY choice, MY responsibility, I am not blaming you at all. Sorry if my blog entry came off that way. I sincerely apologize.

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