Re: OT: Confidence Boost
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Now I feel angry and frustrated, when a bad beat hits, I lose a race for the 3rd time in a session, and I lose 8 bi over 10 games. I doubt myself, at every given opportunity. Worst of all, I stop having fun, which is the reason why I started playing this game in the first place.
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This stuck out the most to me. I know when we talk, you tell me that your biggest enemy is yourself. I read everything, but I know this is part of it. I can see some of it because I know you IRL, but a lot of it comes out clearly in this thread.
You obviously have the poker capacity to win at any level. Its just a matter of balancing that with the mental part of it all. I can speak for you personally seeing the satisfaction of a friend succeeding and moving up.
Here is my two cents. You initially played at the lower levels for a good duration of time. You understood what it took to run over those levels, and you did it. There's no doubt that when you moved up you could succeed at the next level. You were already ready for it, you just didn't have the BR for it yet. You finally moved up and it didn't take long before you were winning on a regular basis at that level either. I think that level and this level is where there is a big gap in the thinking/level of play. You are frustrated because you aren't accelerating up the ladder as quickly as you were previously. This is just not sustainable to expect to jump up at every level and dominate within such a short time span. You just need to take it to another level.
I think the issue at hand is how fast you have accelerated from your prior level up to the 60's. There's no doubt you have what it takes to be a winning player at this level. I think with this level it will take more time and efforts. You are frustrated right now because of how well you ran at the other levels. Sure, you struggled from time to time, but you still had moderate success even when you were down at times.
My advice is there is no shame in moving down or taking time out temporarily. You need to have your mental game be as confident as your actual poker in order to succeed and concentrate to your full potential. Its just part of the roadblocks you must overcome along the way.
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