Re: BLACKJACK PROBLEM!!!!
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Omaha, thanks, that was the best advice anyone has ever given me. I will definitely look into the books you recommended. You gave me tons of things to think about that I have never really thought of before in my poker career. As for my career as a gambler, I am not sure how I feel about it. Obviously, I never would have envisioned myself doing this 5 years ago; it was just something that gradually happened until I got to the point where I was making enough to support myself fulltime. Even though I "feel" I work hard at my job and put in a lot of hours, there is a sense that the money comes very easily and maybe I don't really deserve it.
Jorge
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Even though I "feel" I work hard at my job and put in a lot of hours, there is a sense that the money comes very easily and maybe I don't really deserve it.
Jorge
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BINGO
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Even though I "feel" I work hard at my job and put in a lot of hours, there is a sense that the money comes very easily and maybe I don't really deserve it.
Jorge
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Bingo
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Even though I "feel" I work hard at my job and put in a lot of hours, there is a sense that the money comes very easily and maybe I don't really deserve it.
Jorge
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BINGO
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Even though I "feel" I work hard at my job and put in a lot of hours, there is a sense that the money comes very easily and maybe I don't really deserve it.
Jorge
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BINGO
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Even though I "feel" I work hard at my job and put in a lot of hours, there is a sense that the money comes very easily and maybe I don't really deserve it.
Jorge
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BINGO!
Simple, really, isnt it? You simply do not truly think that you deserve to keep the money. SO you dont. You give it back at the table.
SO why the self esteem issues?
Lets compare you to me. I dont know a whole heap about you, so ill just add two and two together (please excuse any judgments I make about you, but i will prolly be close to the mark!)
I worked my butt off during the last two years of high school, came in the top 2.3% of the state. Went to uni and became a dentist, a borderline fail student in all years. Graduated, fell in love, had three kiddies, got divorced.
PIcked up a book about limit and 7stud soon after the divorce, read it a few times before going to the casino. Went and played $5/10 limit. Played very well, was up, then stayed far too long, game went short handed, and i got slaughtered (the book was too weak tight for a full ring, and shocking for shorthanded) Lost about 200 all up. Only a year later (after not returning) did i realise I only lost by the rake, which was a shocking 75cents per hand, ie 7.5bb/100 hands . THey have jacked this up to $1 per hand now, a shocking 10bb per 100 hands!
So, i whack 500 into party and start losing gradually. Read the book again and again, still going down. So i find out about 2+2, and everyone says to get SSHE. SO, i get it, and continually read and reread it. Needless to say, my graph starts to point north, and i clear bonuses on party, paradise, pokerroom, and sidestep a couple of others that I am outclassed in.
I learnt o8, and plo8, and have just learnt nlhe, particularly tourney plays. Profitable in all (breakeven in limit o8), but very low stakes. There is no use in being the tenth best player in th e world if the other nine are across from you on the green felt!
Have about 30 poker books, and spend far too much time playing. But I love it, am good at it, and wish to learn. At the stakes i play for, even if i was a solid loser all week, I would blow less money than my exwife would in one morning shopping for nothing!
Play a bit live at the pub, have come second in a freebie night, and just won two cash game buy ins $22, for a win of $946 and $230
COmpared to the other donks at the pub, I am soooooo far ahead of them in all areas its not funny.
SO, why do I tell you all this?
To brag, or to make myself look good
On the contrary, it is to make YOU look good.
You see, currently you have a real bee in your bonnet. Okay, you didnt come in the top 2% of your year, didnt go to uni, probably didnt study even remotely hard at school, and turned your part time enjoyment and fun (ie poker) into a small winner, then a bigger winner, and then a part time and full time job.
But, heres the rub, I KNOW how bloody hard it is to even win at small stakes, and the huge difference in ability and skill in just moving up one level
I cannot personally even begin to comprehend what it is like at a level 100 times what I can play profitably.
That is your skill level. If you were to compare yourself to me, (in poker ability), it would be similar to comparing myself to the fish at the freebie nights.
And how much extra work, practise, reading, hand posting and thinking have you done about the game?
I would consider the amount of work that you have done at poker to EXCEED the amount of hard slog and effort that it took me to obtain my dental degree.
And you have problems realising that you earned that money, by outsmarting and outplaying people who are much smarter than myself??????????
You obviously have a talent, much like brain surgery, yet significantly less socially acceptable to the majority of retards that walk this earth
I am very happy that you spent ten hours on the poker table without pissing your hard earned, god given talent away on the bj tables
My further advice
Count your blessings
Get a part time 'real' job. This will cure you of the social stigma of living and sleeping on the casino floor, and will get you out and about.
Reassess your female relationships. My mega mega tilt session on plo8 was due to a huge number of personal issues. Trust me when I say to sort these out.
Ever considered some sort of volunteer work? Personally I am heaps to busy and far too lazy, but you need to feel as though you are putting something back into society, rather than just sucking all the money out from the table
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