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miles,

i love my school and think that it's one of the best undergraduate experiences someone can have in this country. that said, i do feel a certain disconnect with a large portion of my friends and that is what is causing a lot of my "not wanting to do school". and of course, doing homework and getting up for class is hella lame, but that's everywhere.

tyler,

don't be silly. women were made for doing laundry.

seriously though, i would be willing to bet a significant amount of money that 95% of all of the kids here could walk into a laundrymat with a pile of dirty clothes and come out 1.5 hours later with clean clothes. i srsly hope that you're not about to make an ivory tower argument b/c i will def ignore you for a week.

dropping out of school is definitely not allowed. i have already spent $80k of my parent's money. the least i can do is spend the rest!

i do plan on allowing regular life to come back. but it's kinda hard, and especially with fraternity stuff. i can't really explain it, and as you know, you prolly never will understand my social scene. i don't even understand it.

but for sure, my "secret life" does cause alienation. i deal with problems (intellectual and emotional) that these kids can never understand. i've had experiences that are completely different from the rest of them.

but i also know that i can't tell them what the deal is. questions i got last night at dinner:

"so, were you like up or down?"
"if i give you $500 can you make me money?"
"isn't poker just luck anyway?"
"what was the best hand that you made?"
"what stakes did you play?" (looooooolllllllll)
"blah blah blackjack"

etc.

just questions/comments that revealed a general ignorance/stupidity about gambling and this part of my life.