[boomshakalaka]

op I have pretty much lived through what you described several times. I just kinda joke with myself that it wouldnt be fair to my family seeing as a cheap funeral costs more than my br. I think like a lot of other people have said the problem we have is that we are unhealthy physically. Maybe this is because initially we were unhealthy mentally for some reason. Either way, the only way to get back to a stable state of mind is to fix the physical side of things. Eating better is a good first step, it can also be a fun hobby if you teach yourself to cook. Get out of the house, dont order your food in. Take a walk to a restaraunt that you like, bring something to read with you. Go visit some freinds, plane tickets dont really cost [censored] for me, and my br is a small fraction of what you made in two months time.

Most importantly, dont get stuck in that mind set that if you leave the games for any amount of time they will leave you behind. This is a recipe for a huge meltdown. I barely played in october, and I was just visiting a some freinds on the east coast for the past week. I feel [censored] great, I feel rested and ready. I might be a bit rusty, but this is also a chance to take a fresh approach to the game.

Youll be fine as long as youre willing to make some changes.