[tomscuba]

So---this one will get Larry-LookitMe back to tell us about the WSOP results, which I'm genuinely interested in, after he uses his dimestore lawyering skills to rip apart my gender and ethnicity like he did Blankstares.

Your first post read as if it came from your soul. It hooked me on to this thread. You were searching and laying your heart on the table simultaniously. I can respect that.

Your second thread was rehashing to yourself the many clever angles you have employed to overcome CLEAR mathmatical disadvantages. It was a literary representation of what got you so wound up by NL in the first place. You had found an audience to preform to, including us and yourself.

After that the only thing that came from your heart was the bite in your responses to criticism. That may have been what helped you succeed as a lawyer, but I've grown up around them and it is not a prereq'. Ya sound pretty miserable. your gauding it up in formal arguments was listening to a law-bot. Anyone can cut apart an argument. Build yours.

Now you can rip me.
I bought my first 2+2 last August, intending to get serious. Bought the standard library of 20 books and CD Roms, satted (it'll be a verb someday) my way into a few Scandinavian majors, didn't build [censored] for a bankroll but sustained, mostly because I like coke, work and family got in the way, and I wasn't playing to win.

Summer hit (i'm a teacher) and from May to July I earned a second (not huge, admittedly) wage while discovering blurred vision and DVD porn from coke binging. Had a little loss at high limit short handed, chased the money (number on the screen) by uppin the level, playin Omaha 8's, and then went to the casino with the credit card to get it back/beat the hell outta myself.

It worked.

Confessed all to my wife and myself in reverse order the next day--quit smoking cigarettes, gave her the gas card and everything else, stopped with wine at dinner, took the kids pickin blueberries. I haven't smoked or anything for 5 weeks. I consider myself quit. All debts are paid as i live cheap----and heres the [censored] up thing:

I'm wrestling to controll myself because I firmly believe self controll and money management are what keeps my from being a profit player.

Hows that for sick?!?! or logic?

You'll find lots of things that explain your actions, but nothing that justifies those actions.

Find the holes you got and plug em.
Set a long term goal, and then take measured steps to achieve them. Break them into short terms if you need to---sometimes you gotta live yourself into a new way of thinking.

Now rip away---but hell, then tell us how you did in the WaSSOP.

Good luck bud,
Tom