[Godot]

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You have no shot at being a winning gambler.EVER. Your blackjack parlaying nonsense proved that. You can't beat a negative expectation game by making higher negative expectation bets. I only gamble to win money and not for the action and all of that other [censored] casinos try to sell you.

I do not know your financial status. Maybe you can piss away a few hundred grand a year but it seems stupid to me. Try and look at this from the outside and ask what if anything you have gainded from gambling. Now look at what its cost you.I can't go to the store and buy things with action, they usually want money.
In my opinion your girfriend seems like a gold digging [censored]. However if I were her Id rather you spend the money on me than at a fucken card game, so its not totally her fault. Youre a degenerate so shes gonna be there during the good times when money is rolling in and she'll be gone when youre living in a box. I hope she atleast gives good head because she seems pretty worthless otherwise.
Don't play drunk. Plain and simple a bad move.
Don't play sober if you have any value for money. If being piss broke with nothing to show for it play as much as you can. It's your life, you can make your own desisions. Id prefer you not throw it away but thats up to you. I don't buy this garbage that this is a disease. Everything you do has consequnces, I just down think losing all your money gambling is something you should be doing.

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I appreciate you making qualitative judgments on whether I have a shot a being a winning gambler EVER. However, I don’t think that was the reason for my post. I am not here trying to prove that I am or was or ever could be a winning gambler. I think you are missing the big picture here. I only wrote what I wrote to get across a message which I think you completely overlooked. Gambling is not the cause of my problems, merely the most obvious symptom. It would be like treating a gunshot wound with a bandage. Sure it will stop the bleeding, temporarily, but it’s not going to cure you of the bullet lodged in your body. I need to remove that bullet.

The relationship that Allison and I have is far too complex to be fully explained on a poker forum. However, I did post earlier about some of the dynamics of our relationship that I hope made her less one dimensional. I think you may have not read it. Or maybe you read it and had already made your mind up about her and nothing further I wrote would dissuade you from your original impression. First impressions are so important.

I don’t feel the need to justify a relationship with someone to a poker forum. I feel that that is probably beyond the scope of what this forum is about. Whether or not we stay together is ancillary to some other deep seated issues being worked out. I’m sure you will have your opinion, and I am not arrogant enough to believe I can change that nor am I terribly inclined to persuade you one way or the other when it comes to her. What I can do is simply present the facts through my lens and you can take that for what it’s worth. I am not her agent nor her promoter, she just happens to be an integral part of my life and the peanut gallery is not going to influence nor define my relationship with her. That is a decision I must make myself.

As for as gambling as a disease, I think I stated pretty clearly that I don’t believe that it is the root cause of my problems, but rather indicative of some deep seated psychic trauma. I have not thought gambling was something beneficial to my life in over a decade, even when I was winning. I have no illusions as to the damage gambling can wreak personally and professionally. I was there. Therefore, while your well meaning albeit misguided attempts to dissuade me from further gambling is hollow, I appreciate the sentiment.

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