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This will be for some a long boring excursion into one degenerate gambler’s demise that I’m sure you’ve read countless times.

I’m not writing this for purely selfless reasons (i.e. to warn others of the dangers of gambling or whatnot, although that does play a part), I’m mainly writing this for cathartic and self-therapeutic reasons (as suggested by a therapist). Sometimes it is easier to be honest to a group of strangers in an anonymous forum than it is to be honest with yourself.

I know I will get flamed for this post. I just hope that my story well get through to someone in similar circumstances and maybe reveal the dark underbelly of poker.

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Some of you guys are beating a dead horse instead of offering constructive criticism, which is probably because you see elements of you in his story and are engaging in 'reaction formation'.

As far as Godot, you are deviating from your strategy of catharthis and getting wrapped up in ego-based arguments with people that you knew would flame you. This is the same thing that got you in trouble in poker--trying to "get even" with someone specific instead of playing each player objectively.

Part of it may be your law training. Both of my brothers are lawyers, and my son is in law school. One brother has to be right always. The one I spoke about in my previous post doesn't. He' the one that is in solo practice and goes skiing or whatever whenever he want to. But as far as the law training goes, you are playing poker with that training. You won't always be right and you can't file appeals for a bad beat. Revenge is a sure path to a blazing defeat on a macro level.

This is perhaps a reason why you will have trouble gambling on a long-term basis, unless you can bring objectivity into your game.