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farewell for now (long)
Today was one of those days where everything feels so distant, the sun, the moon, the 6 o’clock news, nothing seems close to me - and I’m not any closer to it. I got up, it rained, I ate lunch, it rained, and then I started to write in my journal while it rained. Yes I’m writing a journal now which makes me happy but not because I’m writing a journal only because I want to write it. Sometimes though I think I don’t even want to write it but these things in my brain seem to disagree and it’s hard to argue with things in your brain.
When I first started posting here I was a whiny suburban kid who was going nowhere fast. For a normal person, maybe they could have become hardened and stopped being a whiny ^$%^? like me, but I failed to do so. Probably because of my ADD, my bipolar disorder, my insomnia, my desperate pleas for attention but maybe its really just part of my nature- a born loser. Maybe I’m hopeless, maybe I’m destined to be like so many of the people who come and go on the streets while I sip my coffee and watch them walk past. Just biding my time until that one day when everything will change – but it never changes because nothing ever changes. Life is funny that way, not a haha kind of funny but still a kind of funny that’s sad in it’s own way but once you realize it you get a kind of peace that makes you think that you can live with it, it’s not so bad as long as you can have the few things that make life ok – a cold root beer, a vanilla ice cream, a nice long walk along the beach at midnight. And then of course a girl. But you can never have the one you want because if you had her you wouldn’t want her. But you still can’t help from wanting, and that’s the tough part. So I guess I am at a crossroads, as usual, alone and it’s not exactly dark but it’s not sunny either. I’m here and I’m wondering which way do I go – right or left – and does it even matter or will anyone else even care. And of course they won’t. But that doesn’t make the actual act of choosing any less important – at least not to me – and I guess that’s the part that really matters. And now I will say farewell, my friends, I move on to things that are neither bigger or better – mostly the same – but I’m moving – which is the important part and so maybe our paths will cross again or maybe they won’t so all I can say for sure is farewell for now. |
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want to hug it out?
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gg TOMMY I [censored] LOVE YOU
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Tommy: Forget it, I quit, I can't do this anymore, man. My head's about to explode. My whole life sucks. I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know where I'm going. My dad just died. We just killed Bambi. I'm out here getting my ass kicked and every time I drive down the road I wanna jerk the wheel INTO A GODDAMNED BRIDGE EMBUNKMENT.
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Today was one of those days where everything feels so distant, the sun, the moon, the 6 o’clock news, nothing seems close to me - and I’m not any closer to it. I got up, it rained, I ate lunch, it rained, and then I started to write in my journal while it rained. Yes I’m writing a journal now which makes me happy but not because I’m writing a journal only because I want to write it. Sometimes though I think I don’t even want to write it but these things in my brain seem to disagree and it’s hard to argue with things in your brain. When I first started posting here I was a whiny suburban kid who was going nowhere fast. For a normal person, maybe they could have become hardened and stopped being a whiny ^$%^? like me, but I failed to do so. Probably because of my ADD, my bipolar disorder, my insomnia, my desperate pleas for attention but maybe its really just part of my nature- a born loser. Maybe I’m hopeless, maybe I’m destined to be like so many of the people who come and go on the streets while I sip my coffee and watch them walk past. Just biding my time until that one day when everything will change – but it never changes because nothing ever changes. Life is funny that way, not a haha kind of funny but still a kind of funny that’s sad in it’s own way but once you realize it you get a kind of peace that makes you think that you can live with it, it’s not so bad as long as you can have the few things that make life ok – a cold root beer, a vanilla ice cream, a nice long walk along the beach at midnight. And then of course a girl. But you can never have the one you want because if you had her you wouldn’t want her. But you still can’t help from wanting, and that’s the tough part. So I guess I am at a crossroads, as usual, alone and it’s not exactly dark but it’s not sunny either. I’m here and I’m wondering which way do I go – right or left – and does it even matter or will anyone else even care. And of course they won’t. But that doesn’t make the actual act of choosing any less important – at least not to me – and I guess that’s the part that really matters. And now I will say farewell, my friends, I move on to things that are neither bigger or better – mostly the same – but I’m moving – which is the important part and so maybe our paths will cross again or maybe they won’t so all I can say for sure is farewell for now. [/ QUOTE ] QFSBness |
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Sup bros.
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I just wanted to let you know I didn't read any of that.
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I’m here and I’m wondering which way do I go – right or left [/ QUOTE ] Yo, u need to go straight. |
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srs bsness makes me sad.
I hope everybody who is depressed or not content gets better in bbv4lyfe. I'm actually pretty happy myself, and i wish everyone else was too. we gotta stick together yo. Even if life aint perfect, bbv4L can be if we make it. You guys get me (most of the time), i get you (most of the time), we all get each other in our wierd way and we yell F OOT together. its how the BBVVorld works. So to anyone who needs a hand, yours 4LYFE, Danny |
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[ QUOTE ] I’m here and I’m wondering which way do I go – right or left [/ QUOTE ] Yo, u need to go straight. [/ QUOTE ] but... dude.... what if there is a wall straight ahead?????? |
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I just wanted to let you know I didn't read any of that. [/ QUOTE ] Well, I actually did notice something about vanilla ice cream and root beer. Vanilla Bean Breyers and Diet Barqs rules, yo. |
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[ QUOTE ] Today was one of those days where everything feels so distant, the sun, the moon, the 6 o’clock news, nothing seems close to me - and I’m not any closer to it. I got up, it rained, I ate lunch, it rained, and then I started to write in my journal while it rained. Yes I’m writing a journal now which makes me happy but not because I’m writing a journal only because I want to write it. Sometimes though I think I don’t even want to write it but these things in my brain seem to disagree and it’s hard to argue with things in your brain. When I first started posting here I was a whiny suburban kid who was going nowhere fast. For a normal person, maybe they could have become hardened and stopped being a whiny ^$%^? like me, but I failed to do so. Probably because of my ADD, my bipolar disorder, my insomnia, my desperate pleas for attention but maybe its really just part of my nature- a born loser. Maybe I’m hopeless, maybe I’m destined to be like so many of the people who come and go on the streets while I sip my coffee and watch them walk past. Just biding my time until that one day when everything will change – but it never changes because nothing ever changes. Life is funny that way, not a haha kind of funny but still a kind of funny that’s sad in it’s own way but once you realize it you get a kind of peace that makes you think that you can live with it, it’s not so bad as long as you can have the few things that make life ok – a cold root beer, a vanilla ice cream, a nice long walk along the beach at midnight. And then of course a girl. But you can never have the one you want because if you had her you wouldn’t want her. But you still can’t help from wanting, and that’s the tough part. So I guess I am at a crossroads, as usual, alone and it’s not exactly dark but it’s not sunny either. I’m here and I’m wondering which way do I go – right or left – and does it even matter or will anyone else even care. And of course they won’t. But that doesn’t make the actual act of choosing any less important – at least not to me – and I guess that’s the part that really matters. And now I will say farewell, my friends, I move on to things that are neither bigger or better – mostly the same – but I’m moving – which is the important part and so maybe our paths will cross again or maybe they won’t so all I can say for sure is farewell for now. [/ QUOTE ] QFSBness [/ QUOTE ] SBness was not intended to mean srs bsness but i guess it could mean that too lol |
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[ QUOTE ] [ QUOTE ] I’m here and I’m wondering which way do I go – right or left [/ QUOTE ] Yo, u need to go straight. [/ QUOTE ] but... dude.... what if there is a wall straight ahead?????? [/ QUOTE ] run over it. god made 4 wheel drive for a reason. |
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So to anyone who needs a hand, yours 4LYFE, [/ QUOTE ] huggles |
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[ QUOTE ] [ QUOTE ] I’m here and I’m wondering which way do I go – right or left [/ QUOTE ] Yo, u need to go straight. [/ QUOTE ] but... dude.... what if there is a wall straight ahead?????? [/ QUOTE ] Drizzle can easily smash through a wall. |
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[ QUOTE ] So to anyone who needs a hand, yours 4LYFE, [/ QUOTE ] huggles [/ QUOTE ] http://i167.photobucket.com/albums/u...r99/ANIMAL.jpg |
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where r u going
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this had better be a level.
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So I guess I am at a crossroads, as usual, alone and it’s not exactly dark but it’s not sunny either. [/ QUOTE ] Yeah, I feel the same way, well, almost never. But, when I do, a fifth of Seagram's helps. Hell, a fifth of Seagram's helps no matter how I feel actually. Try it. |
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I read this entire thing hoping for it to be a rick roll. Now I want to kill myself too.
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this had better be a level. [/ QUOTE ] Plz note that the mods have temp banned drizzle until such time as he is beating 100nl over a meaningful sample. |
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drizz, u ok man?? i hope u feel better have taking a step back and thinking about life in general
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wtf gay
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sigh <3 drizzle
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Cliff notes: Op realizes the true meaning of life which is: Get married to some chick who's gonna end up fat, have a few kids and pay bills.
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Cliff notes: Op realizes the true meaning of life which is: Get married to some chick who's gonna end up fat, have a few kids and pay bills. Yawn. [/ QUOTE ] Reading this makes me want to buy a house on a beach and a bunch of dune-buggies. |
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hes probably like bmwguy and reads everything but just doesnt post which saves a lot of time
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sigh <3 drizzle [/ QUOTE ] |
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<3 spaceman Drizzle
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<3 spaceman Drizzle [/ QUOTE ]first person so far to get it? |
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[ QUOTE ] So I guess I am at a crossroads, as usual, alone and it’s not exactly dark but it’s not sunny either. [/ QUOTE ] Yeah, I feel the same way, well, almost never. But, when I do, a fifth of Seagram's helps. Hell, a fifth of Seagram's helps no matter how I feel actually. Try it. [/ QUOTE ] Crown Royal. Try Crown Royal. |
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I MISS DRIZZLE
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want to hug it out? [/ QUOTE ] not with you, cuz like ... you know? cuz like... ah forget it.. |
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[ QUOTE ] Cliff notes: Op realizes the true meaning of life which is: Get married to some chick who's gonna end up fat, have a few kids and pay bills. Yawn. [/ QUOTE ] Reading this makes me want to buy a house on a beach and a bunch of dune-buggies. [/ QUOTE ] buggies are all like vrooom vrrroooooom! and the dunes are all like onoes! and were all like hellz to the yeah! |
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what
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