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The day was January 16th. I had recently moved up to 600nl and made somewhere around ~$6,000 the previous day, so I was in a very good mood. I decided to stay home sick from high school since it was just a review for mid-terms, and I'm smart enough to survive without them. I keep wondering what would have happened if I decided to go in that day. Naturally, I booted up poker, and began the mark of the longest bad run of my life.

Well, its 8 weeks later now. I got home from 300 and felt like killing people, so I got on stars and had another losing session, beginning my 9th losing week in a row. In 2,000 hands, I somehow managed to have set under set 5 times. Yesterday I had quads under quads. Crazy huh? Anyway, I didn't come here to list off random beats that nobody cares about. I just need to get this stuff of my chest.

I remember playing 400nl and crushing it. Man that was fun. Ask any regular there at the time and no doubt I was in their top 5 list. What changed? I'm nearly busto now, and have managed to lose 85% of my online roll during these 215,000 hands. It just doesn't make sense to me. I know this sounds whiny and all, but I guarantee that out of BBV as a whole, less then 3 people have ever run as bad as me (there may have been more, but no doubt they would have killed themselves by now. I truly admire my willpower at least).

It's just like nothing works for me. I study the game more than 99% of the people and I'm the hardest worker I know. Playing less tables, playing more tables, playing tighter, playing looser, watching aba's video have all been futile attempts at getting my graph going up again (moving up did work though. My shot at nl5k after a bad day in nl400 went well, thanks BBV).

I know that everyone is gonna come in here and tell me that I suck and that I was probably always a loser and just ran good. Whatever, say what you want. As I said before I'm not looking for sympathy. All that matters is that I know in my mind that I'm a solid winning player, and that's all that matters to be honest. It's just unfortunate that the poker gods chose me to feel their wrath harder than anyone. I'm playing the Sunday Million tomorrow, and that will probably be the end of my career unless I go deep. I simply can't take it anymore. All my hard work has not been paying off, and I have no passion for the game. It's been fun, but it looks like my end has come.

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You know the game better than your opponents, you are willing to study and fix any leaks you have, and you aren't even in the negative yet.

Take a break and play again, or just keep playing. Things will turn around!

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woah i just blacked out for like 10 minutes, LOL donkaments dude so a kid hit a 2 outer on you just move up and win let us gogogogo

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This is one of the few bad run posts i think i sympathize with. Thats sucks man, I hope you build it back quickly.

but in all honesty, better BR management? u lost 85% of ur online roll, that seems tough to do with good BR management.

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Just because you state that we will say "you were a losing player and ran good" doenst change the fact that you are.

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This is one of the few bad run posts i think i sympathize with. Thats sucks man, I hope you build it back quickly.

but in all honesty, better BR management? u lost 85% of ur online roll, that seems tough to do with good BR management.

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I always have at least 30-40 buyins (differs depending on my mood) for each level.

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u lost 85% of ur online roll, that seems tough to do with good BR management.

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Most people dont keep much of there roll online. I keep a ridic small fraction online at times, and for most people a simply greater then average down swing, if not simply a down swing, would be able to do this to most people.

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keep your roll
stay in school

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didnt you win 20K at 200NL in a couple days or something crazy like that?

anyway, sorry to hear about your baf run, colombo.

I am not sure if you are in the top five 400nl players on stars--im not saying you are not, just that i don't know.

you seem to go on super gorilla tilt sometime, how much do you think that contributed to your play.

Also, graph in dollaz plz.

kthnkx

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didnt you win 20K at 200NL in a couple days or something crazy like that?

anyway, sorry to hear about your baf run, colombo.

I am not sure if you are in the top five 400nl players on stars--im not saying you are not, just that i don't know.

you seem to go on super gorilla tilt sometime, how much do you think that contributed to your play.

Also, graph in dollaz plz.

kthnkx

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I don't tilt often. When I do it usually just increases my variance, but doesn't hurt my winrate that much. Rarely will i go completely crazy.

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Winning players don't have 9 losing weeks in a row, at least not winning ones playing as 'low' (It's not low, but it's low enough that your fluctuations shouldn't be THAT bad) and as many hands as you are.

Now, I've had a joke or two at your expense, but take a step back and look at the stats as if they're someone elses. You're losing. Games are harder than they were (at least on Stars they are) and you're pretty new to all this. (Yes you are.) Drop down a lot, like $50nl or something lot and get your confidence back.

Do this now before you're busto.

My ratio of serious/nonserious in BBV just took a huge hit because of this post, please don't donk it up.

<font color="white"> Lori</font>

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SOMEONE HAS TO LOSE SO THE JAMIE GOLDS OF THE WORLD CAN WIN

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watching aba's video have all been futile attempts

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What/Where is this video?

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I think i remember playing you HU on stars a long time ago. Anyway, just go stack a bunch of donks at 100nl for a bit and get back in the groove. And on the plus side if you were playing minbet and running this bad you probably would have committed suicide by now.

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Well, its 8 weeks later now...during these 215,000 hands.

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I've never played that high a limit, and i've never played that many hands. But dont you think 27k hands/week for 8 weeks while going to school fulltime is a little much?

My suggestion is to take a break. I mean a complete break from poker for at least a month. dont think about it, dont play a friendly nickel/dime game with your buddies. dont pick up a poker magazine or even visit the forums. total poker blackout for a measly 30 days. after that, go play at the limit you are still rolled for and build back.


OR as this is BBV. Put whatever you have left into one buyin of 100/200 NL.

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At the poker level you are playing psychology is very important. You know the game basics and you know some advanced stuff too, but are you really in control of your decisions? There are several things you say in your post which suggest your psychology is not right...

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I'm smart enough to survive without them...

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Are you really? If you take this line in your poker learning you will skip bits where you need to graft and it will be your undoing sooner or later. Maybe the later has arrived...

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I keep wondering what would have happened if...

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Why? What a monumental waste of time. Inability to let go and move is a sign of emotional neediness. Not a good trait for a wannabe poker king...get back to playing each hand the best you can.

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...and felt like killing people

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Anger management? Look to yourself, stop taking it out on other people. You made all the decisions, including the one to make poker such an important ingredient of your persona. The rest is just random numbers...

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...no doubt I was in their top 5 list

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Get a life. Do you have an idea how others percieve you? This is just a wish-list entry and lists mean nothing, except to dick-measuring contestants.

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What changed?

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Nothing. But maybe you need to.

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I guarantee...less then 3 people have ever run as bad as me

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Your guarantees are worthless as you probably have not asked everyone yet. All this appears to be is an attempt to say how unlucky you are. Sounds like a losers excuse to me...

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I study the game more than 99% of the people

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No you don't, you just think you do, same reasons as above. Maybe it's time to stop studying the game and start studying yourself?

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...I was probably always a loser and just ran good

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This has to be considered if you are going to get your head right. If you cannot admit to this possibility, you will never see things as they really are.

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All that matters is that I know in my mind that I'm a solid winning player, and that's all that matters to be honest.

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Actually, when it comes to poker, the only thing that matters is $ in the bank, and that's all that matters to be honest.

Of course, you get those $ by playing good poker.
How are you judging your play? You cannot rely on $ in the short-term.

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I don't tilt often. When I do it usually just increases my variance, but doesn't hurt my winrate that much.

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Ha-ha-ha-harrr! Clownshoes.

Firstly, if you really believe that tilting does not affect your WR I think you need to go back and re-read some of the basics. Clearly, you have not learnt this lesson yet.

Second, of you tilt at all you still have a lot to work on. Not <u>often</u> is not good enough.

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Colombo have you tried this site yet

http://www.cardrunners.com

they have videos of good players playing good pokers.

You should watch GP, he's awesome! You'll learn a lot from him!

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How old are you?

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The day was January 16th. I had recently moved up to 600nl and made somewhere around ~$6,000 the previous day, so I was in a very good mood. I decided to stay home sick from high school since it was just a review for mid-terms, and I'm smart enough to survive without them. I keep wondering what would have happened if I decided to go in that day. Naturally, I booted up poker, and began the mark of the longest bad run of my life.

Well, its 8 weeks later now. I got home from 300 and felt like killing people, so I got on stars and had another losing session, beginning my 9th losing week in a row. In 2,000 hands, I somehow managed to have set under set 5 times. Yesterday I had quads under quads. Crazy huh? Anyway, I didn't come here to list off random beats that nobody cares about. I just need to get this stuff of my chest.

I remember playing 400nl and crushing it. Man that was fun. Ask any regular there at the time and no doubt I was in their top 5 list. What changed? I'm nearly busto now, and have managed to lose 85% of my online roll during these 215,000 hands. It just doesn't make sense to me. I know this sounds whiny and all, but I guarantee that out of BBV as a whole, less then 3 people have ever run as bad as me (there may have been more, but no doubt they would have killed themselves by now. I truly admire my willpower at least).

It's just like nothing works for me. I study the game more than 99% of the people and I'm the hardest worker I know. Playing less tables, playing more tables, playing tighter, playing looser, watching aba's video have all been futile attempts at getting my graph going up again (moving up did work though. My shot at nl5k after a bad day in nl400 went well, thanks BBV).

I know that everyone is gonna come in here and tell me that I suck and that I was probably always a loser and just ran good. Whatever, say what you want. As I said before I'm not looking for sympathy. All that matters is that I know in my mind that I'm a solid winning player, and that's all that matters to be honest. It's just unfortunate that the poker gods chose me to feel their wrath harder than anyone. I'm playing the Sunday Million tomorrow, and that will probably be the end of my career unless I go deep. I simply can't take it anymore. All my hard work has not been paying off, and I have no passion for the game. It's been fun, but it looks like my end has come.

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What are you complaining about, everyone knows this is standard.

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Report from the Sunday Million?

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Report from the Sunday Million?

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missed registration. gg life?

im 18 for whoever asked.

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Colombo,

I'm not picking apart your post to be a dick, but I just trying to give some advice. From what I can see you have the completely wrong mindset here and getting back to winning again will be very difficult unless you change that.

How long did you crush 2/4 for? In fact, how long did you crush for? From what I've seen from your graphs it looks like you went on a super heater and have been losing since then. It IS possible that you aren't a winning player and thinking otherwise is not gonna help you. I'm not saying you are not, but to get out of this you will have to consider that and step back and honestly reevaluate your game. I'm not sure where you get this top 5 at 2/4 idea from, but I'm sorry, you were certainly not close.

Poker is a funny game, sometimes we make the right play and get [censored] for it, other times we make the wrong plays and get rewarded for them. This is one reason why it is so difficult to get good. You need to view results independent from actions, etc. Also, poker is ever evolving and our opponents and styles change and adjust. Sometimes what was good then, is now bad. Sometimes there are extended periods of time where we make the wrong plays and come out ahead.

Anyways, my advice to you would be to take a break. A fairly long one. Maybe a month or something. Find another hobby or something else to do. At this point you are likely in a bad state of mind and it's just compounding things. Then, drop down to 100nl (if rolled) and play a lot less and study a lot more, talk with others, post on 2+2, and honestly reevaluate your game instead of coming into this with a "I'm a winning player" attitude. Then, as you are moving up, take out half your profits. This will slow down how fast you move up and also give you something to show for everything you have done and you won't be playing with your net worth.

Also, wtf at your parents letting you to stay home and play poker.

Good luck with whatever you choose to do.

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Columbo don't listen to skier. I've seen you play. Now all you need to do is get a loan and start playing again. A loan any way possible. All of the pros get loans when they run bad. Then it's insta-ROBUSTO!

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How long were you crushing mid stakes games?

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OR as this is BBV.
1. Put whatever you have left into one buyin of 100/200 NL.
2. ??????????
3. Profit!

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move up to where they respect your raises etc....

seriously though, you sound like you're talented and have a love for the game. Take a break, maybe a month, move down a limit and grind. Make money, enjoy life. You could be flipping burgers like 70% of your 18 yrst old freinds.
GL.