Two Plus Two Newer Archives - I need to just kill myself and end this now

You know, my [censored] life is a mess. I have very little that makes me happy. Poker used to be one of those things but god damn its beating me down.

Here's my last two days.

1/2 NL at Ceasars Palace,
3
in the BB w/ 86

board 864 2 hearts, raise a lot, 2 people call

turn 9 heart, raise more, same 2 call (great)

river 6, all in, both call

Lose to higher full house w/96

Today, MGM:

JJ raise preflop, 4 callers

Flop: J 7 4 rainbow, raise
Turn: 6, 2nd heart, raise a bunch, dude pushes I insta-call
River: blank

he shows 5 8 for a gutshot straight on the turn, nice hand dick head.

Reload.

2 hands later, AQ. Raise a bunch get 2 callers

Q 5 2 is flop, rainbow, raise a bunch, 1 caller
Turn 3, raise, dude pushes for like $5 more, i call
River, blank

Lose to 5 3 off suit.

Online tonight:

I think i was rivered 22901290192209 times. My W$SD is under 30 over 1000 hands so far.

Absolute Poker
No Limit Holdem Ring game
Blinds: $0.25/$0.50
4 players
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Stack sizes:
UTG: $62.76
Button: $108.65
SB: $76.65
Hero: $123.20

Pre-flop: (4 players) Hero is BB with 4[img]/images/graemlins/club.gif[/img] 5[img]/images/graemlins/diamond.gif[/img]
UTG folds, Button raises to $2, SB calls $1.75 (pot was $2.75), Hero calls $1.5 (pot was $4.5).

Flop: 3[img]/images/graemlins/diamond.gif[/img] A[img]/images/graemlins/heart.gif[/img] 2[img]/images/graemlins/diamond.gif[/img] ($6, 3 players)
SB bets $2.5, Hero raises to $10, Button raises to $23.5, SB folds, Hero raises all-in $121.2, Button calls all-in $83.15.
Uncalled bets: $14.55 returned to Hero.

Turn: A[img]/images/graemlins/club.gif[/img] ($117.65, 0 player + 2 all-in - Main pot: $221.8)

River: Q[img]/images/graemlins/diamond.gif[/img] ($117.65, 0 player + 2 all-in - Main pot: $221.8)

Results:
Final pot: $117.65
Hero Shows 4c 5d
Button Shows 4d 8d

Absolute Poker
No Limit Holdem Ring game
Blinds: $0.25/$0.50
6 players
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Stack sizes:
UTG: $23.55
UTG+1: $98.25
Hero: $65.80
Button: $19.20
SB: $62.90
BB: $55.40

Pre-flop: (6 players) Hero is CO with Q[img]/images/graemlins/heart.gif[/img] Q[img]/images/graemlins/spade.gif[/img]
2 folds, Hero raises to $2, Button folds, SB calls $1.75 (pot was $2.75), BB raises to $5.5, Hero raises all-in $65.8, SB folds, BB calls all-in $49.9.
Uncalled bets: $10.4 returned to Hero.

Flop: J[img]/images/graemlins/club.gif[/img] K[img]/images/graemlins/diamond.gif[/img] 3[img]/images/graemlins/club.gif[/img] ($59.4, 0 player + 2 all-in - Main pot: $112.8)

Turn: T[img]/images/graemlins/spade.gif[/img] ($59.4, 0 player + 2 all-in - Main pot: $112.8)

River: J[img]/images/graemlins/spade.gif[/img] ($59.4, 0 player + 2 all-in - Main pot: $112.8)

Results:
Final pot: $59.4
Hero Shows Qh Qs
BB Shows Kc Ac

Absolute Poker
No Limit Holdem Ring game
Blinds: $0.25/$0.50
5 players
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Stack sizes:
UTG: $20
CO: $25.35
Button: $61.15
SB: $19.50
Hero: $105.10

Pre-flop: (5 players) Hero is BB with 9[img]/images/graemlins/club.gif[/img] 7[img]/images/graemlins/heart.gif[/img]
UTG calls $0.5 (pot was $0.75), CO raises to $1, Button folds, SB calls $0.75 (pot was $2.25), Hero calls $0.5 (pot was $3), UTG calls $0.5 (pot was $3.5).

Flop: T[img]/images/graemlins/spade.gif[/img] 6[img]/images/graemlins/club.gif[/img] 8[img]/images/graemlins/club.gif[/img] ($4, 4 players)
SB checks, Hero bets $4, UTG folds, CO calls $4 (pot was $8), SB folds.

Turn: Q[img]/images/graemlins/club.gif[/img] ($12, 2 players)
Hero bets $6, CO raises to $12, Hero raises to $33, CO calls all-in $8.35.
Uncalled bets: $12.65 returned to Hero.

River: 3[img]/images/graemlins/diamond.gif[/img] ($52.7, 1 player + 1 all-in - Main pot: $52.7)

Results:
Final pot: $52.7
Hero Shows 9c 7h
CO Shows Jc Ac

Etc, etc.