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I was mad at you guys because I came here for support and the like 6 people called my problems fake and my account a joke. I actually cried about this because i had been posting here for 2 years and everyone hates me. This is just like high school. I realize this isnt a support group but come on. I dont have a lot of real friends and I need people to at least act reasonalby to me because i am on a very thin thread of sanity.
I just wanted to say hello to see if you guys have already forgotten about me. Anyway, I am not allowed to use the internet but I have a library close to my house so you all get to hear my ramblings anyway!!YAY! Yes its true by the way- I sent naked pictures of myself to older men and had sex with one of them. I do not know why i do these things but I cannot control myself. It makes me very sad and I know I belong in an institution somewhere but what am i supposed to do, just give up on life and say "take me away!" SO i have been trying to do good things lately- ie focusing on my less harmful addictions I read a few good books( middlesex, the great gatsby, kite runner) and I have a level 24 character in oblivion. I have a job at night stocking groceries and I sleep two hours a day. Becuase I live with my parents I actually have some money saved up. Yes I am really pathetic, I know that. Also, I actually started a relationship with this girl I have been stalking and its just a friendship but thats amazing considering
that I thought she would have a restraining order by now.
Also, last night I saw a movie that was wierd. It was a movie about this older guy named leon and he takes a homeless twelve year old girl under his wing and teaches her to assasinate people. her name is matilda. She is the hottest 12 year old I have ever seen in a movie. I missed sections of it. If you have a clue about which movie im talking about...

is that a young natalie portman?? also, I am not a pedophile.

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Sweet. Leon, btw.

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To answer your question: yes.

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The movie is "The Professional."

Welcome back, Bryce.

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To answer your question: yes.

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WOw natalie portman was amazing back then.

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Getting warm in here. Feels like a fire is brewing. Smell smoke...

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Hello

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Hi Bryce, we all missed you. Which grocery store do you work at? If I come by, will you pretend to scan stuff but secretly slip it into my bag so I don't have to pay?

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Hi Bryce, we all missed you. Which grocery store do you work at? If I come by, will you pretend to scan stuff but secretly slip it into my bag so I don't have to pay?

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I work at Price chopper.Its in leawood, ks.If you want to take stuff, just come after 5 and leave it at the bottom of your cart. You forget to put it on the belt thingy and i will forget to ask you for it

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So how did you become friends with the girl that you were stalking? Does she know that you were stalking her?

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I was mad at you guys because I came here for support and the like 6 people called my problems fake and my account a joke. I actually cried about this because i had been posting here for 2 years and everyone hates me. This is just like high school. I realize this isnt a support group but come on. I dont have a lot of real friends and I need people to at least act reasonalby to me because i am on a very thin thread of sanity.

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I'm glad you're back, Bryce. I would read anything you write.

I hope you're doing better, or will be soon.

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So how did you become friends with the girl that you were stalking? Does she know that you were stalking her?

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I dont know. I called her like 5 times ie stalker type calls because i am a psycho and then she would call back......strange. And so now we hang out sometimes.
Im getting better at fiding the type of people who are not immediately terrified by the real me. And by bieng the real me, I have become a much better judge at what girls mean when they are saying things to you. I erased a long explanation of what I mean here.

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hello

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Hi Bryce, we all missed you. Which grocery store do you work at? If I come by, will you pretend to scan stuff but secretly slip it into my bag so I don't have to pay?

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I work at Price chopper.Its in leawood, ks.If you want to take stuff, just come after 5 and leave it at the bottom of your cart. You forget to put it on the belt thingy and i will forget to ask you for it

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My sister lives in South Leawood. Could you please allow her to steal stuff as a personal favor to me?

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No one is exactly thrilled with my plans to alleviate my suffering. My plan by the way is to become a poker pro basically. However nothing could sound worse coming from me. FOr instance lets take my moms point of view. She has to pay for therapy and medications so that i can think straight. I like to dance to gnarles barkley and i play system of a down ALOT.I walk around naked all the time and I usually miss the toilet seat when i pee. I bring a lot of crap in to her house, ie porn, anime, and pot. And i got a 0.0 gpa at college last semester. and i never eat food. Ok so I tell her that my plan is to become a poker pro. She knows nothing about gambling except for the fact that its a sin. DO you see where she might not have too much faith in my goals?? Actually no one believes in me at all. I have a bunch of relationships with people that are based on the fact that
1.They feel sorry for me or
2. They are selling me something / using me.

Thats why i imagine the moment when I plunk down 26k that i win in the scotty nguyen poker challenge so much. And it makes me sad because i no longer trust in my own abilities to do anything right. but what if..what if some how i win a big tourny or I write something that sells well?then the jester will become the prophet.These are the delussions that i hold on to to keep me alive, that and marrying shannon, an even worse delusion.

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Hi Bryce, we all missed you. Which grocery store do you work at? If I come by, will you pretend to scan stuff but secretly slip it into my bag so I don't have to pay?

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I work at Price chopper.Its in leawood, ks.If you want to take stuff, just come after 5 and leave it at the bottom of your cart. You forget to put it on the belt thingy and i will forget to ask you for it

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My sister lives in South Leawood. Could you please allow her to steal stuff as a personal favor to me?

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maybe you need to email me.

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Spaceman,

I like your avatar, who is the artist? It reminds me of something Munch would do.

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lol dude, you're so gay. Welcome back.

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So I get a message from spaceman but when I try to reply

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We cannot proceed.
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Hello SMB

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Hello SMB

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WHO THE HELL ARE YOU???

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I love you all.

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Am I the only one who thinks Bryce is a genius?

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Spaceman,

I like your avatar, who is the artist? It reminds me of something Munch would do.

[/ QUOTE ] Its vincent van gogh, the prison rounds- i think.If I could go back in time and be friends with anyone it would be vincent van gogh.

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So I get a message from spaceman but when I try to reply

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We cannot proceed.
This user is ignoring you. You cannot send them a message.

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That was a total misclick sorry. I NEVER meant to ignore you.
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congratulations, you still aren't funny

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congratulations, you still aren't funny

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At what point was I trying to be??

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Every post you make

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Cosentino's Price Chopper - Leawood
3700 West 95th Street, Shawnee Mission, KS 66206
(913) 648-4200

Price Chopper 500
13351 Mission Road, Leawood, KS 66209
(913) 906-9208

Hmmm.....

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Am I the only one who thinks Bryce is a genius?

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Cosentino's Price Chopper - Leawood
3700 West 95th Street, Shawnee Mission, KS 66206
(913) 648-4200

Price Chopper 500
13351 Mission Road, Leawood, KS 66209
(913) 906-9208

Hmmm.....

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Someone definitely needs to pay Bryce a visit and post a trip report.

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We haven't forgotten about you. Just the other day someone on a fairly new account made a post that sounded sort of like something you would write, and I responded with "Bryce?"

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He's mine.

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hey bryce,

are you going to post on your blog anymore?

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Yes, that was a young Natalie Portman. I don't recall the title of the film, though. Have you tried to attend a support group? I attend a group sponsored by the Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance (DBSA). here is a list of the groups in Kansas.
http://www.dbsalliance.org/supportmap_results.asp?id=KS
This has been a tremendous help for me.

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She is the hottest 12 year old I have ever seen in a movie. I missed sections of it. If you have a clue about which movie im talking about...

is that a young natalie portman?? also, I am not a pedophile.

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She was 11 when that was filmed.

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Am I the only one who thinks Bryce is a genius?

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Nope.

Bryce, your writing -- while a bit rambling at times -- is great.

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Hello SMB

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WHO THE HELL ARE YOU???

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What a great exchange. Simple and retardedly funny.

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tl;dr

who the hell are you?

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No one is exactly thrilled with my plans to alleviate my suffering. My plan by the way is to become a poker pro basically. However nothing could sound worse coming from me. FOr instance lets take my moms point of view. She has to pay for therapy and medications so that i can think straight. I like to dance to gnarles barkley and i play system of a down ALOT.I walk around naked all the time and I usually miss the toilet seat when i pee. I bring a lot of crap in to her house, ie porn, anime, and pot. And i got a 0.0 gpa at college last semester. and i never eat food. Ok so I tell her that my plan is to become a poker pro. She knows nothing about gambling except for the fact that its a sin. DO you see where she might not have too much faith in my goals?? Actually no one believes in me at all. I have a bunch of relationships with people that are based on the fact that
1.They feel sorry for me or
2. They are selling me something / using me.

Thats why i imagine the moment when I plunk down 26k that i win in the scotty nguyen poker challenge so much. And it makes me sad because i no longer trust in my own abilities to do anything right. but what if..what if some how i win a big tourny or I write something that sells well?then the jester will become the prophet.These are the delussions that i hold on to to keep me alive, that and marrying shannon, an even worse delusion.

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Don't give up on your delusions. Everyone needs goals in their lives.