Jaguar101
11-26-2006, 01:27 PM
Hello,
I am having a hard time right now grasping life and was wondering if maybe SMP could help me think logically and not be depressed.
Growing up I was always a good kid, not many problems ofcourse I drank some but nothing big and I didn't do drugs. Didn't really worry about religion(though i didnt believe in christianity-- what everyone else believed in) or how people acted that much, was just being happy most of the time.
Came to a big university and drank all the time my freshman year. Things were great again. Then as time went on i started thinking about religion. How people could do one thing (commit adultery as an ex) and then go to church like nothing was wrong. You could be ask for forgiveness and you were ok for committing those sins, whereas I wasnt committing sins but I was still going to hell.
I really started to hate people and how clueless they are. EX: I am sure most men (me included) want to have sex with every hot girl on the planet. But then I am sure most men (me included) don't want their daughter to be used by a man like that. So why do one, if you dont want the same thing to happen to your daughter?
I won a $23,500 in a tourney a couple years ago and last year won the Region College Champ tourney for 1k (not good in the world finals). Since then I have lost all my money. I am about to graduate from the big university this semester (10 days) and have no money nor want to do anything in life. I hate working with people, have no motivation and hate having to act nice to ones i dont like. I get a rush out of playing poker but I can never stay within my limits and therefore broke as anything (not to mention sucking at sports betting). Basically, I am wondering what I can do to change my life and make it happy again. Everything is just a bore and find myself depressed day after day.
I am having a hard time right now grasping life and was wondering if maybe SMP could help me think logically and not be depressed.
Growing up I was always a good kid, not many problems ofcourse I drank some but nothing big and I didn't do drugs. Didn't really worry about religion(though i didnt believe in christianity-- what everyone else believed in) or how people acted that much, was just being happy most of the time.
Came to a big university and drank all the time my freshman year. Things were great again. Then as time went on i started thinking about religion. How people could do one thing (commit adultery as an ex) and then go to church like nothing was wrong. You could be ask for forgiveness and you were ok for committing those sins, whereas I wasnt committing sins but I was still going to hell.
I really started to hate people and how clueless they are. EX: I am sure most men (me included) want to have sex with every hot girl on the planet. But then I am sure most men (me included) don't want their daughter to be used by a man like that. So why do one, if you dont want the same thing to happen to your daughter?
I won a $23,500 in a tourney a couple years ago and last year won the Region College Champ tourney for 1k (not good in the world finals). Since then I have lost all my money. I am about to graduate from the big university this semester (10 days) and have no money nor want to do anything in life. I hate working with people, have no motivation and hate having to act nice to ones i dont like. I get a rush out of playing poker but I can never stay within my limits and therefore broke as anything (not to mention sucking at sports betting). Basically, I am wondering what I can do to change my life and make it happy again. Everything is just a bore and find myself depressed day after day.