natzucowww
10-26-2006, 06:09 AM
Hello, am looking for some feedback on this. Berate me please.
You think that you get it but have an underlying unease because you can’t think on your toes, you’re attached to your knowledge. This is what people mean when they say it’s not intellectual, but they don’t explain that intellect rides in the wake of nothingness. So it’s not like you don’t have an intellect; like you are supposed to give up your thoughts and feelings for some hippy love. There is awareness that can be ‘purified’ through non-intervention of the mind, egolessness, which means you think whatever it is that you think, but you acknowledge and accept your thoughts and feelings without cutting them off which is repression/depression. In short, you are just meticulously aware of your thoughts. Then your personality is not caught up in your thoughts and feelings which are subject to any whim of your attachments, but rather you act from an overseeing point of view which is a foothold in the timeless. From the timeless, you are able to see clearly because you are not in fear or self conscious of your own thoughts; you have battled your demons, or at least have a working knowledge of dealing with your thoughts, which is enough to surf with.
When you see clearly you can assess how you repress yourself and when you see how you repress yourself you can heal yourself through awareness which is love. When you’re aware of how you’re a [censored]-up, you automatically correct yourself, unless you’re scared to look at yourself honestly, then you hide, creating an aversion in your mind and a subsequent neurosis to cover up the imperfection in the basic perfection of conscious awareness. This is the process, I believe, Ken Wilber refers to when he talks about the yellow stage in Spiral Dynamics (Clare W. Graves, furthered by Don Beck and Chris Cowen). Yellow is the first stage of the ‘second tier’ which occurs after a shift in consciousness happens. Zen says the gateless gate, the step in the direction of enlightenment. Regardless, yellow, or whatever is where you accept the stream of consciousness that runs through your system, without interfering (egolessness) and of which you can be conscious of because that’s all you really are when your ‘small self’ (ego) dies, or at least you see that the ego or grasping self is inhibitive when reinforced. For example, when you continue to delve into your attachments/addictions although you ‘know’ you shouldn’t be, you reinforce your ego or, the devil. The devil isn’t something to hide from though, the devil sits shotgun once you are tainted, have been kicked out of Eden. Now in order to get back in, you really do have to do what is ‘right,’ or, the relinquishing of your attachments, seeing how you are defiled and loving yourself, being aware of how you ‘sin,’ attach, are addicted to something in your mind. It’s pretty easy if you look at it from an encompassing point of view. You’re born into ‘heaven,’ reality, get defiled by the ‘real world’, the ugliness that man has created through attachment/separation of which you are a part of now, and now you have to fight for your mind through the abstainment of the ab-use of power, willpower. Doing what is right. How do you know what is right. When you know your own mind from an observational role you see how you mis-take reality, and you see that you do so from an egotistical p.o.v. To just be aware of that is the step towards purification and purpose.
You think that you get it but have an underlying unease because you can’t think on your toes, you’re attached to your knowledge. This is what people mean when they say it’s not intellectual, but they don’t explain that intellect rides in the wake of nothingness. So it’s not like you don’t have an intellect; like you are supposed to give up your thoughts and feelings for some hippy love. There is awareness that can be ‘purified’ through non-intervention of the mind, egolessness, which means you think whatever it is that you think, but you acknowledge and accept your thoughts and feelings without cutting them off which is repression/depression. In short, you are just meticulously aware of your thoughts. Then your personality is not caught up in your thoughts and feelings which are subject to any whim of your attachments, but rather you act from an overseeing point of view which is a foothold in the timeless. From the timeless, you are able to see clearly because you are not in fear or self conscious of your own thoughts; you have battled your demons, or at least have a working knowledge of dealing with your thoughts, which is enough to surf with.
When you see clearly you can assess how you repress yourself and when you see how you repress yourself you can heal yourself through awareness which is love. When you’re aware of how you’re a [censored]-up, you automatically correct yourself, unless you’re scared to look at yourself honestly, then you hide, creating an aversion in your mind and a subsequent neurosis to cover up the imperfection in the basic perfection of conscious awareness. This is the process, I believe, Ken Wilber refers to when he talks about the yellow stage in Spiral Dynamics (Clare W. Graves, furthered by Don Beck and Chris Cowen). Yellow is the first stage of the ‘second tier’ which occurs after a shift in consciousness happens. Zen says the gateless gate, the step in the direction of enlightenment. Regardless, yellow, or whatever is where you accept the stream of consciousness that runs through your system, without interfering (egolessness) and of which you can be conscious of because that’s all you really are when your ‘small self’ (ego) dies, or at least you see that the ego or grasping self is inhibitive when reinforced. For example, when you continue to delve into your attachments/addictions although you ‘know’ you shouldn’t be, you reinforce your ego or, the devil. The devil isn’t something to hide from though, the devil sits shotgun once you are tainted, have been kicked out of Eden. Now in order to get back in, you really do have to do what is ‘right,’ or, the relinquishing of your attachments, seeing how you are defiled and loving yourself, being aware of how you ‘sin,’ attach, are addicted to something in your mind. It’s pretty easy if you look at it from an encompassing point of view. You’re born into ‘heaven,’ reality, get defiled by the ‘real world’, the ugliness that man has created through attachment/separation of which you are a part of now, and now you have to fight for your mind through the abstainment of the ab-use of power, willpower. Doing what is right. How do you know what is right. When you know your own mind from an observational role you see how you mis-take reality, and you see that you do so from an egotistical p.o.v. To just be aware of that is the step towards purification and purpose.